The Leap

Ok, so it's been a while since I've put some new content up here. I've spent a long while thinking of a new topic - and for some reason can't find the right way of saying things. Remember the kind of day where its' almost like you're floating on a cloud - no-one can touch you, you own the stage? A day where you wake up thinking "Nothing can beat this. This moment can't be beaten." Well, I met such a day. It's almost like the world has finally given in and started handing you the Aces and Pairs - In my case, it feels as if the powers that be have taken a day off, allowing me a day without the usual trouble and mistakes that would normally ensue. I am, after all, prone to blowing any opportunity that comes my way, whenever it does. However, I suppose my main point to all of this, is that I am trying to understand a feeling. I can't describe in words, how amazing I have felt recently. It is just not transferrable to any form of text at the moment. The only thing wrong with allowing these feelings to take over you is that, sure enough, the nearer you fly to the Sun, the farther you fall when you're wings can't take the heat and melt. Cheesy biblical allegory, I know - but aside from the whole 'wings thing', but at least Icarus had the mettle and courage to take the leap. A leap of faith. Sure, it didn't exactly work out too well - but he jumped.

I suppose the topic that I'm subtly sidestepping, and know in my heart of hearts I need to confront is faith. Not religion, not faith in some God or higher power - but faith in other people, in your fellow person. I'll happily acknowledge that I am a risk taker. I'll look at the risk and think, its' okay, I am me, and I know that I can do this. In actual fact, everytime I try to surf the larger breaks in Cornwall, there is something telling me I need to stop surfing - I could die doing this. Although, the other voice in me, the true me, that takes risks and chances, tells me to live a little, live every day as if the next will not come - and I do. I'm addicted to the feeling that I get when I ride on the wave, it may only be five or maybe nine seconds, but it will be seven or nine seconds spent in Heaven; where my mind stops, and my heart takes over - I don't think, I let the wave take me, and I risk its' power and danger - thus far, it has brought me home safe.